"How long have you not being called back?", "Have you ever tried to talk properly to ur parents asking them for smth that u always wanted?" and the 2 year old sentence that have been told to me, "The moon is so bright tonite, call ur mom and tell her u love her".

These are all sentenced told to me by my love ones, can't i learn to appreciate my parents more? Maybe it's the secondary school bad experience that have stopped me from getting to know my family more. Those past experience of being bullied, being isolated and abandoned is really haunting me every now and then. Being bullied outside and release the temper back home, that's wut being happening for the past. Luckily i've an understanding pair of parents that can tolerate me, and forgive me. Loving me and giving me their very best, all the while.

The day a friend came over for shelter and suddenly talked about family. I'ven't been talking wif her a lot, yet by just a few hours of conversation, she noticed that i seldom talk about my own family. I've always take it as normal not talking about my own family, and being very afraid of mentionin about them as well. Not like Irene, who dares to talk about her dad even though there's a lot of bad characteristics about her dad that she doesn't like. I should be fortunate having a understanding dad that i respect a lot, but expressing it out is another thing.

There's a part of me that feels shameful about being daddy's boy and mommy's boy. My younger sister, Shan Qi (very sure that none of you know her name till know huh) is always jealous cause i got all the things i wanted, the time i wanted, the way i wanted while she seldom gets the attention. Yet, Qi you learnt from the hard part, growing up and realised a lot when u're together with dad and mom while i haven't been growing up much except wut i've learnt from the society, from the books i've read. You haven't been reading much and ur english sucks, but appreciating parents and not regretting on the coffin is wut i admire about my lil sis.

The following day, called back and apologise to my parents. They said that they juz played along with me when i was back in Penang. Melacca friends, wut u see is the mature side of Ah Neoh yet there's a childish part in me that only those rare few seen inside me. Well, being childish is part of me that haven't grown up. Hopefully this time when i go back, i'll show my mature self and not being such a baby anymore. Qi and me seldom chat as most of the time mummy was taking up all the call times, even dad seldom chat with me. The other day, when i called back, Qi knows that i've problem and she sents me an email right after the call. So kind of her. She's just F6 and she's been so concerned about me thought we always quarrel over small stuffs.

Talk a bit about my lil sis, she used to be so naive that i always trade smaller drawers wif her bigger drawers. It's so farnie last time when we have so much toys and stuffs when we stayed in the terrace house back in Sungai Dua. It's such a nice home which i feel bad to rent it out. Qi, what did i know about her? Never really get to understand her b4...hm, bad Big Brother huh. That's why i never hear her calling me "Koko" before. As i've never fulfil my tasks, never being treating her good. Ah well...19 years have past, wut to do?

In a nutshell, no matter guys or gals, calling back home is smth nessasary. Being close to family is not intended for those who wanna get parents' property after their death, but is to keep in touch with those old folks back home that feels lonely. My parents are those who ain't those that talk about love and care all day (not malaysian culture anyway), but when they talk about love, you can actually feel the warmth. I love you Dad, Mom and Qi!!!