Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka! It's already 47th years that our country have archieved independence.

I'm back in Penang dy. Yeah, arrived quite early at around 4.30pm in Butterworth and take a ferri across to the Island. I think a lot of people have been trying to reach me, especially my sister Shan Qi, and another fren who came back from Germany Yi Ling. Sorry to disapoint them. Having rushing all around once i came back. Solving things up and trying to gain back the happy me.

Qi was so naughty she was driving my car all around while my parents are in Manila. I was looking for a red kelisa when she come and fetch me. Mana tau that lil gal drive my new Ms H to town. How worried i am that she got into an accident which she always get into. But she's my blood related sis, wut she wants oso have to let her lah. Since i've never treated her like a lil one to me b4. She's like grown up being more mature then me (in thinking i mean).

I wasn't keen to reveal her earlier as i'm not the kinda person who love to talk about wut i don't believe in. May have been asking for a good friendster testimonial so that she can give the men around her a good impression. Hah! i can't do that as i can't jz simply write about someone when i haven't seen the real person, how she have improved and how she have changed in time. Industrial training have changed a lot of people that have been working during that period. For better or worst, they themself can actually feel the changes and be proud of it.

Olympics have gone over. And it's such a pity to see that unfortunate brazillan marathon runnner ends up third place when he have been leading all these while. Pity pity...but this is how the world runs. U might be 1st now, but someone might over take you at one period of time. Cya again in China 2008.

Thanks uzyn for the links u found for me. Well, here's something i came out with. Copy some codes from my fren.

Finally finished all the 5 papers i have for this trimester. But issit finally over? Hm...hope there's no people reporting any "Breach of paper" or leak of answer questions. I don't want to stay here studying any longer. I want to go back Penang and rest, sleep for at least 2 weeks, before coming back to touch any papers.

Hm...i think today's paper shouldn't be any problem to get thru lah. Did fill in most of the things that i know. Anyway, Zubeir kinda suspect me looking at Yi Chen's paper yesterday during DigiCom not sure if i have to go and pay him a visit and pura-pura see wut's his reaction to me. Hopefully he din fail me on that paper. It's a tough one for me...make me think of, "am i suitable of becoming a communication engineer" or not. Hate Fourier, hate Nyquist, why those people come up with those Transforms and theorem to make my life troublesome.

It's holiday for me now. Gonna have a great dinner later. And hopefully can get an early ticket back soon to see my new gf "Ms H". Haha... dad found it for me earlier. Really appreciate mom's willingness to take out 1/3 of her savings to get me that gf. Thanks again mom. Enjoy yourself with dad in Manila.

Haven't post up much interesting pictures lately. Well here are some things that i noticed. Fellowship of Google, let's celebrate Olympics together!!! Here are some of the Olympics theme that i've managed to see and download. Send it to me if you happen to get more of that. I'll like to collect "ALL" of those pictures. Their Multimedia department muz have spent a lot of effort to do these stuffs, and juz display here to show my appreciation.

Another boring day studying and laying around while Hyuei juz finished his last paper. Same to most of the other people besides Telecommunication Majors. Aih~ pity pity...

So eager, wanting to drink down a tin of Carlsberg for 2 days dy. Yet at the last moment i still changed my plan thinking of the things that i've studied and everytime i feel like drinking, my study mood suddenly pops up, making me concentrate on my books more.

Got this gal that found me thru the blog. Added her into my YM list. Well, here's a pic of her...

MingZheng Female, 19, Single Location: Malaysia Hometown: Bukit Mertajam, Penang Last log in within: 24 hours Message Bookmark Add

Another paper down - Introduction to Power Systems. Disapointed with myself. There's no one to blame other then myself. Why am i always so nervous and tension b4 the paper and yet i don't wanna flip thru the pages as if i'm already "so great" know all. End up with bad results that juz pass the border line.

Look thru the paper again and try to count the marks that i can get. Hm...shouldn't have a problem to get a pass. Just hope that the examiner will be kind enough to give me some pity marks to at least get a B-. Hopefully lah, i can't even do 70% of the paper. Shit!

Found some nice pages on the web to share. Yeah, i still spent time online and browsing those sites ppl send me. Hm...why can't i control myself. Bad Neoh, bad bad boy.

• HK version Yahoo! Messenger
• The myths of sex b4 sports
• Penang is building its own Penang Time Square
• Another warning on Gold Quest Scheme

Wake up by that cibai fuckily mosquito accompanied by a WTF cockroach!. These combination really piss me off. One of them have been disturbing me so often that i can't even get into the sleeping mood anymore. For christ sake can't you juz finish sucking the blood that is enough then get the hell away from my room!!
Argh, then there's this cockroach that's so dickly daring to enjoy the pleasure and comfort inside my pants cupboard! These creatures should be eliminated from the surface of the earth for permanent!!! Same goes to those stray cats that disturb my sleep. I H.A.T.E people disturbing me from my sleep! I hate is so much that phone calls will be slammed and people will be cursed if they wake me up from my sweet dream.

Okey, woke up at 4.30 yesterday morning and start studying. Too bad all these doesn't pay up as those questions are so different from those that i've been studying for. Not aiming for questions to answer? I juz can't control myself from doin that. 1st paper(Multimedia Technology & Applications) is still okey, maybe too excited when Vivien Lim compliments about my apprearance this morning until i forgotten wut i've been studying. But can't blame it on that, or anyone else as it's me that have not been seriously been reading up every single details that is in the book.

Then there's this paper in the afternoon that aspect people to memorize and cite everything that's in the books - Basic Law. I feel it's more like Basics to swallow and spit. I love literature a lot, but i juz hate the memorizing part. Quote this, cite that. What the heck, shouldn't all these be open book? After the exam, go thru the paper again...trying to "collect" enuff points so that i don't need to see the lecturer's again in the future trimesters ( in class at least)

Release my stress and temper thru a half hour squash session alone. It's really amazing how squash can clear my mind just by hitting a ball on to a wall that doesn't response. At that moment, the world is like only left with the walls, the black ball and the racquet. Everything under the control of my hands. ( oh yeah, and the mirrors at the back as well).

Don't feel like eating around Bukit Beruang so cycle out to Jaya Jusco to have some Japanese food. I got this coupon i cut down from the newspaper that save me RM2 for a Unagi set, so i took one of those and some other plates on the kaiten. But the food really taste different. It's like lack of companionship, eating alone never being as tasty as eating with some companionship. Spent a lil over RM20 juz for my dinner. Ain't really much but i'm already full. Then decided to get another small McD twist ice cream cone as dessert.

So tired when i reached back home i slept right after mum called. Until...

Another late post. Exam excuses again. Covered most of wut i'm suppose to cover dy so take some time off to write smth here.

All thanks to justin for initiating the plan, suggesting to give yeejen a memorable farewell party before he leave us for cyberjaya nxt trimester. Initially there was a split of thinking where a party supports the idea while another is only concerned about their results. But over night things changed and everyone came together to make it a success.

On the planned date, everyone gathered outside his house, and we stormed into the hive in a whole group. Well, that's some initial surprise to him i think waiting for people to celebrate wif him since we are kinda late due to delay of the VJN's maggie basah. Then there's the candle light blowing and wishes. The lights are out, and then we sat down and watch a flash done by his gf "sent" from cyberjaya. Where JyhYian did quite a good work on the flash. When asked what he'll want most then, he says that it's jyhyian he wants to see most. Then out of the crowd, comes out jyhyian and a few of his cyberjaya friends. It's sucha well planned plot!!!

Then there's some hugs and kisses, and we started the "feast" eating up some great VJN classics. There's even Pepsi for everyone. While we're almost finished, we sat down and enjoy the flash Justin made after they learn Macromedia Flash for 1 trimester. While watching, Sue Yee and M@rimo shread tears, i'm quite sure others did too. It brings back all the memories we have - Taman Negara, Pulau Redang, Jasin... all those picture comes out again and there's Jay's song at the background even. Then together we sing 2 songs Peng You and another song which i can't remember the name. It's such a great atmosphere where everyone hold hands and do the "wave" thing.

Then WanChoon @ Josh volunteered for a solo. It's not like he's the best singer, but his efforts really boost up the celebration atmosphere. Then there's the nonstop photographic session. How can i missed such a chance taking photographs. Too bad i left my S1is at home. If not there'll be a lot of precious moment i can capture. Hm..it's about 2.30am when i reach home. Kinda late for an early bird like me. Haha...back to books

Here's wut a fren wrote on a yahoogroups which makes me get an idea or wut to write for today.

...u r not aware that girls r born with ability to talk 3 times faster than guys. THIS IS TRUE.it's science.so when u say GIRLS NAG, its just becos guys' ear cannot keep up with girls' speed and eficiency in talking, and so their brain interpret it as CRAP..... and i m not crapping here,i read bout it in an article . Thats y u see girls have so much to talk about with girls , but guys always find it hard to make out our sentence, simply becos we r fast. does that mean our brain works faster as in interpretting data and transmit it into data pulse , * okie , i dont know wat i m toking, I M NEVER INTO biology ,ERM... anyway , its something like our brain has the ability to translate data into pulse and send it to our brains and back , MUCH FASTER THAN THE NORMAL boys.......... TEE HEE ........... get the idea? * so basically girls react much faster . I MEAN u do see it in everyday life , just that THE MACHUNIST???? NONO , ERM .....MAUVINIST??.....watever , I MEAN GUYS WHO R SEXIST ....... DISTORT THE fact that girls react faster by the word ' HYSTERICAL ' they always say girls r hysterical . ERM , WE CRY WHEN we watch a movie , SIMPLY BECOS OUR BRAIN interpret the movie and transmit the data to out nerve system and make us cry . guys dont becos they r slow , GET WAT I MEAN ???? and WE GOT EXCITED EASILY when we talk , AND WAT ELSE , WE MOVE OUR HANDS AROUND WHEN WE TALK , WE HAVE A LOT OF FACIAL ESPRESSION , WE GOT PISSED EASILY , AND WE HV THE AMAZING ABILITY TO CRY AND LUFF IN THE NEXT MINUTE , hehehe , ITS ALL ABOUT faster reaction and MORE SENSITIVE NERVE SYSTEM .

Well, since you people wanna talk about bio and how girls talks faster, let me reason it out with you using the things that i've been reading up all these while. Telecommunications & communication networks.

Yeah, ok...everyone agrees that girls might have transmitted more data over a shorter period of time. So the Bit Rate is high. But there's a catch. Meaning that there are short of check bits and acknowledgment bits. Well, that simply is like sending all the raw data and you don't know where the data will be goin. It's juz like all the craps that she's writing about and no one even wants to go and read it because those things that she write is not in sequence.

Let's say M is using Datagram approach which she writes all her messages that she have in mind whenever it pops up. But at the receiving end, the data will be received randomly which causes the receivers (readers) to consume more time to decode, and reassembling the packets of data she sents.

When women talks, they tend not to double check or think thru wut they are goin to talk about which causes a huge loss of bandwidth and consume huge storage space in our memory (brain). Some of their packets sent are just too big that will caused a traffic congestion on the receiver's eye. So, during the transmittion of data from the eyes to the brain, there might be packet losses and drops. Even reading from the screen and intepreting the words might cause errors.
Guys think twice before they talk. That's why they can talk with lesser works which means more just like poetry writing. Men are borned engineers in a way. We take into consideration the transmission structure, user-user interface (speaker-listener communications), the frame format (granmar and language), pritority classes (saying what's important 1st) and we even get FECN (forward explicit congestion notification) and BECN (backward explicit congestion notification) from looking into the listener's eyes when we are talking. Not just that, guys (or at least me) reading the DE (discard eligibility) bit to determined if the gals have talked more then they are supposed to (Access Rate).

As for girls crying or more emotional, i can say that it is analogous with RTT (round trip time). Girls have a shorter RTT which in this case means that their TTL (time to leave) is also very short. When they cried, their brain will stop appreciating the rest of the movie as the information is transmitting in real time basis.

Hm..did i missed out smth? Well, actually not all guys know how to apply the communication skills like what i've mentioned. Or take into account all those tat are being listed (i've only mention partially cause if i continue ppl will say i nag). It's not about sexist or wut. People just have to learn the correct way to communicate, the right time to communicate (CDMA - CA collision avoidance).

*Warning*: This doesn't mean that i'm sexist or boasting about wut i've learnt. Juz wanna share a different way that we can talk about this communication. I'm sure a lot of you can do better then me. Do share your tricks in the sleeves with me

I juz checked my blog and i realised that i've forgotten to greet Dianni(29th July) happy bday over the blog. Well, i did have a meal with her and the group of friends. Might be just too busy that time that i've forgotten to write about it.

There are quite a few birthdays last month. Started with Neoh Shan Qi(6th), Wong See Fee(10th), Loh Pei See(12th), Lim Jinq Wen & Ng Yen Hong(23rd), Koh Seow Kern(27th) & Looi Ding Wen(28th). Hope i din missed out any in the list.

Got an SMS from Su Wei as well as a long post from her on Y!Groups. She makes people feel that she's always that sampat and never ever being serious a minute in her life. But from what i've read from her post, she have grown wise in a lot of ways being independent and all. Though her words are still farnie in language sense, but the message hidden between the lines really enlightens me. It makes me feel so fortunate to be able to stay close to home (200km away) and not have to worry about cultural shock or not being able to find hawker food. She talks more about why not to depend on friends, and how to grow up being alone. I feel having someone to comfort and depend on at times is not that bad after all.

It's a balance between having friendship and being alone. I'd love the companionship of a girl friend when i go travelling, i'd love a group of friends to celebrate birthdays and supper with. But at times, i just want to be alone, being all by myself doin my own stuffs, make my own travels and get to know new people. So, having friends or partner ain't all that bad. It's juz that you can't not juz depend on them on everything - doin assignments for you, washing your clothes, driving you to classes... Those are people that misused their friends and caused their coursework mark to go down. (Makes me remind about the stupid DC2 lab report that was being penalized). Too much written now, better get back to my books

Planned to write a few days earlier yet can't think of anything much to write. I've remembered an article last week on Lorong Selamat, a place where i used to go and have good char koay teow. The picture taken was so familiar that i only know wut it's about when i start reading it. Too bad they plan to build a coffin house there. But i'll sure visit despite all the pantang that people have. [Lorong Selamat hawkers say no to casket shop]

I'm not sure what pressure that have been faced by our students. Some people juz put their aspectations so high that they can't reach it themselves and try to get a release from all these pressure by goin to another world/dimension. Well try not to be like this guy http://www.chinapress.com.my/content.asp?dt=2004-08-09&sec=malaysia&art=0809mb96.txt <---see... MMU financial engineering student gone mad... hak seng khi siau liau...

It's finals now, take some time off and listen to this nice tune mixed anoynomously songs from F.I.R and Avril Lavigne. The background music is quite "ngam".

I've juz presented my J2ME project which is nothing but some modifications of the codes we obtained as it's not possible for us to study a new program by ourselves in a packed schedule. (Especially without any basics on J2SE) It doesn't really matter now as it's all in the past. When i was googling, i found this quite interesting GIF2TXT converter. But it's not good for all pictures, only some particular contrasted pictures can be displayed properly.

Forgotten where i've read this. But we can now actually learn Shao Lin Temple's crafts and secrets online juz like learning up guitars, programming and digital photography. They even include all those secrets that are only passed down from Master to selected students. According to the report, they post all those secrets up because the time is different, and it's time that self defence skills are to be shared by all. Juz make sure u dun use those on me :)

Having a disapointing gathring last night. Can't believe that there are some people who are so lag of communication skills. I'd not mention about those people who have been so passive in thinking, and those who are so academic cautious that everything else meant nothing much to them. From what i've talked for the past 2 posts, couples should have good communication. With the lag of communication skills, it'll be very disgracing to see couples quarreling with each other especially in public. I believe that if the man is talking in front of his friends, the girl should at least keep quiet if she doesn't agrees with the facts that are mentioned by her guy. While the guy should've told her about the contents that he's goin to present on the day itself.

Have received a mail from Wei Sern regarding how to let go and how to forget someone. To me, it's not supposed to happen that way. We ain't gonna forget someone as it's smth really tough, brings no benifits, and it'll just be a waste of time and effort that have made two people come together. If one day, feelings have evaporated, situation doesn't allow, we'll just have to keep and treasure what we have left - the memories that are left within us. The precious moments shared, and the happy and memorable times that will never happened again unless we're sucked away by the Black Hole. I think he should be sad right now, to let go or to give up his loved ones, but there's sure one day that things like this will happen. It's juz a matter of sooner or later.

It's a fact of life that everything that comes together will go apart one day. That's the fact of Ying and Yang that chinese have been always talking about. There's life, there'll be dead one day. The separation is something to be sad of, to cry of. But when are you planning to stop crying? There's a time where we should juz give up regretting and feeling sorry, and lived happily again. There's no use worrying as it ain't gonna bring any fruits to your success.

That should be all the time i have to post today. Getting back to the topic, i've been trying to study in the library today. It's only 1 more week till the finals, and yet the concentration doesn't accumulate up in me. Have just been browsing thru a few chapters of my lecture notes, haven't really do the tutorials yet. Hopefully i can manage everything in time. Will make more allocation for second read thru since i'm not being physically attached. Back to books now.

Argh, accidentally deleted the post....have to start all over again. Well, to make it simple, i've finally realised what Irene have been feeling when being with me. Not being able to spend enought time with her and i've always been out with the girls (erm, i mean boys). Most of the time i was helping others out, doin activities and helping up in the society. Occasionally flirting and courting, which was kinda hobby of mine 12 months back.

Ok, i do understand the hard feeling of being beside a person who is selflessly sacrificing his time, money and emotions to help others up. It needs a lot of patience, as well as understanding. But it's hard for my partner to actually help me up with my activities besides supporting me morally. That's why it's best that both partners are of the same interest, doing charity, helping up children or have taking photographs just for fun in the park on the weekends.

I can't blame the person that helped the person who owes hell lot of money on the previous post. Cause i'm one of this kind of people, being a doremon in class. I'm tired of it actually, but...Josh quote me smth from Spiderman 2.

The world needs a hero yet Spiderman is gone,
But he will come back when the city needs help.

Thanks for that, well if there's a need, i'll still help up the society when i'm needed. Yet i noticed one slight problem when u helped up a friend of the opposite sex. Lesson: Never be to kind to someone of the opposite sex unless you want her. There might happen misunderstanding, and trying to avoid you.

It's weird really... when you are with someone you like, you tend to be shy and avoid. But when you are with a normal friend of the opposite sex, you'll find it more easy to talk it out wif him/her. That's weird, i don't know why...getting a good impression? That's fake my friend! I'd rather fart and burp in front of those close with me. Accepting me as i am is the friend i'm looking for. I'm not like in the working world now where everything is concerned about how you look and how u present yourself. I'll juz be "THE WAY I AM" and continue doin so while i can.

Juz got back from the phone. Seems like the case is an acceptable case. And i've to learn to help people by practicing my own judgement. How i'm suppose to make my judgement on who to help and who not to, will depends on the wisdom, experience and grow as i aged. By this age, it's not about Growing up, but Growing Wise. In a nutshell, we should be thankful with what we have. Good night.

People feel that Penang people are Kiam Siap, or thrifty. But why are there still so many people lending money from Loan Sharks @ Tai Yee Long??? Can't believe that. A healthy family, loving family, but still wanting to go and risk it all. Issit about parenting? The way the children are brought up?

Okey, it's correct to help up your siblings, and even your sibling's children. But, there should be a limit to helping other's right? If you din stop helping others and know when to help, u'll be treated like a Doremon, juz like wut have been happening to me in class. That's when i decided not to help everyone, only those that i cared and those who cared for me.

Marriage guidance, starting up a new business, and even helping up in a paying back. When will all of this end? Alright, i do understand that to be successful today, they gave u some money to futher your studies, but it's not like helping them up continuously until a "无我" stage. Yeah, i admit that 钱是生外物 (money is not physical), but there should be a limit to all these i suppose.

Enlightenment, gaining Karma and returning a favour. Hm... I don't understand, I still don't. Blame me for not accepting that, i'm still young, too young to accept that.

"How long have you not being called back?", "Have you ever tried to talk properly to ur parents asking them for smth that u always wanted?" and the 2 year old sentence that have been told to me, "The moon is so bright tonite, call ur mom and tell her u love her".

These are all sentenced told to me by my love ones, can't i learn to appreciate my parents more? Maybe it's the secondary school bad experience that have stopped me from getting to know my family more. Those past experience of being bullied, being isolated and abandoned is really haunting me every now and then. Being bullied outside and release the temper back home, that's wut being happening for the past. Luckily i've an understanding pair of parents that can tolerate me, and forgive me. Loving me and giving me their very best, all the while.

The day a friend came over for shelter and suddenly talked about family. I'ven't been talking wif her a lot, yet by just a few hours of conversation, she noticed that i seldom talk about my own family. I've always take it as normal not talking about my own family, and being very afraid of mentionin about them as well. Not like Irene, who dares to talk about her dad even though there's a lot of bad characteristics about her dad that she doesn't like. I should be fortunate having a understanding dad that i respect a lot, but expressing it out is another thing.

There's a part of me that feels shameful about being daddy's boy and mommy's boy. My younger sister, Shan Qi (very sure that none of you know her name till know huh) is always jealous cause i got all the things i wanted, the time i wanted, the way i wanted while she seldom gets the attention. Yet, Qi you learnt from the hard part, growing up and realised a lot when u're together with dad and mom while i haven't been growing up much except wut i've learnt from the society, from the books i've read. You haven't been reading much and ur english sucks, but appreciating parents and not regretting on the coffin is wut i admire about my lil sis.

The following day, called back and apologise to my parents. They said that they juz played along with me when i was back in Penang. Melacca friends, wut u see is the mature side of Ah Neoh yet there's a childish part in me that only those rare few seen inside me. Well, being childish is part of me that haven't grown up. Hopefully this time when i go back, i'll show my mature self and not being such a baby anymore. Qi and me seldom chat as most of the time mummy was taking up all the call times, even dad seldom chat with me. The other day, when i called back, Qi knows that i've problem and she sents me an email right after the call. So kind of her. She's just F6 and she's been so concerned about me thought we always quarrel over small stuffs.

Talk a bit about my lil sis, she used to be so naive that i always trade smaller drawers wif her bigger drawers. It's so farnie last time when we have so much toys and stuffs when we stayed in the terrace house back in Sungai Dua. It's such a nice home which i feel bad to rent it out. Qi, what did i know about her? Never really get to understand her b4...hm, bad Big Brother huh. That's why i never hear her calling me "Koko" before. As i've never fulfil my tasks, never being treating her good. Ah well...19 years have past, wut to do?

In a nutshell, no matter guys or gals, calling back home is smth nessasary. Being close to family is not intended for those who wanna get parents' property after their death, but is to keep in touch with those old folks back home that feels lonely. My parents are those who ain't those that talk about love and care all day (not malaysian culture anyway), but when they talk about love, you can actually feel the warmth. I love you Dad, Mom and Qi!!!